KS is home from hospital. The calcium is low enough for him to be released. We are both very tired, in different ways. It is lovely and sunny outside. Crisp edges of buildings against a blue sky. Tree tops that are gently waving. If all goes well, nothing much will happen today. I will go down again to stroke the neighbours’ cat. I am wondering though: how much attention is enough? I am trying to take my cues from the cat, but so far it has been hard to read. So I am going on my own sense of enough. I do not have much to give, dear cat. So it will be coming, giving you some treats, checking your food and drink, followed by limited stroking and inevitable going. I do not have much mental space to properly meet this cat. Apologies.
My attention has been very much focused outside of myself for these past months. For good reasons. But in the long run this isn’t going to work. I have set a up a group of helpers on WhatsApp. And, after I did my first request on it yesterday, it looks as if it is working. People are amazing. I am still trying to find ways to replenish myself and somehow it seems I am the only one that can help with that. But like with the cat, I do not have much space to meet this properly. What I can do is go there with an open mind, with no plans and no preconceived limitations. Wish me luck.
